The train has passed Arizona city and I know I won't be back for a good while.  My tiredness and nervousness about the future seems to be increasing as I get farther from home. The excitement i felt earlier has waned and I just want to sleep but, alas, I cannot.  The train was over booked and I am cooling my heels in the observation car until we get to Tucson. I should get my own seat when we get there.  Hopefully.I recognize these emotions.  Everytime I leave home, there is a period of decompression.  I guess that is why I like taking trains...  The forced downtime helps me break free of my emotions before getting to my new home.The excitement will come back but for now I just want to sleep.